Devoted to Development
There is this book, called the “Encyclopedia of Birthdays”. I am an “Astrology Nerd”…100%. I love to geek out on all things astrology. So you can imagine my excitement when I discovered that there exists, not only a breakdown of character traits based on the month you were born, but down to the day!
Yes that’s right, all 365 days of the year have been assigned a certain name. My birthday for instance is January 1st. Yup, I’m a New Year’s baby! And yes, that does make me special. I was born to be a light unto the world. (Well, actually we all were…but there’s nothing wrong with reveling in your own glory). I like to do that now…now that I don’t have terrible self-esteem underlying the confident exterior that everyone else could see.
January 1st is the birthday of “Self Development”. This means that I am ALWAYS looking to improve upon myself, whether I like it or not…that shit is hard-wired into me! Like most things I can see both sides of the situation. I like the fact that I am always seeking to grow and evolve and better myself. On the flip-side, it is a challenging energy to carry, as it has often left me feeling like I’m not good enough. Like I’m never enough. There is an inherent sense of perfectionism that comes along with it that can be exhausting!!!
I have not living an “ordinary life”…not by a long-shot. Perhaps because I was born under the birthday of Self-Development I had to start out in a pretty rough and rocky place? So I would have somewhere to go? Either way, it has been a longgggg journey. I am proud of how far I have come. How much of the crazy-ass conditioning I have reversed. I literally have devoted my life to development.
In my mind it wasn’t an option. I knew that I was deeply wounded and I refused to accept that life was meant to be lead in such a manner. So I dove in deep to any and everything I could find to fix the problem. I have spent tens of thousands of dollars in self-development over the years. Looking back, I would definitely skip taking some of the costly avenues. But I think that’s just life, you live and you learn and when you reflect back you see where you could have done better for next time.
The vast majority of what I spend my money on however I feel was absolutely necessary, because it went towards my own healing. That in itself, paired with my compassionate and non-judgmental demeanor, make me an excellent life-coach.
Part of my journey of self-development had me traveling around the globe. I found it particularly helpful to get far away from those who knew me in order to grow and figure myself out. I needed space and time to become my own person, because the person that I was “expected to be” is vastly different from who I actually am.
Even though my family has artistic blood running through both sides, this was NEVER offered up as a viable career option for me. My family had bought into the conditioning that it isn’t possible to “make it” as an artist, but instead it was far more prudent to “get a good job with security”. Yeah…super #old school. It actually makes me want to vomit writing that! Because I NOW KNOW that you are just as likely to succeed in ANY AREA that you choose! It has nothing to do with what path you choose, but instead with your willingness to go towards your goal and your belief that it is possible.
Yes I tried to “do the right thing” and get a regular job so I follow the standardized path of “what you do” as an adult. It didn’t stick. Even just writing about it bores me to tears. I am certainly not putting down anyone who does choose that path. I am a LOVER above all else. I appreciate all people and all ways of life (that are not causing harm). Just make sure you are CHECKING IN with yourself. Are you actually happy with your choices? Because if you’re not…guess what!? You get to choose differently!! This is my EXPRESSION into the World…so I get to say whatever I like!
That to me is freedom. To get to be my weird and wild and crazy self, and to get compensated JUST FOR BEING ME! I am so happy that we live in the time that we do, where the Internet made it possible for us to have Personal Brands. Honestly, I don’t know how I would have made it/did make it in past lives where I couldn’t be myself.
When I tried the regular job gig I just couldn’t hack it because deep down my SOUL would revolt! It would be like, girllll, what do you think you are doing!? You are NEVER going to find happiness here! You are born for more!!
And so are YOU! We are all born with wild and crazy dreams. Only some of us are brave enough to go after them. To you trailblazers, rule breakers, risk-takers, change makers…I say “come join me on this rocket ship to the TOP! We are not stopping at the glass ceiling, we are BREAKING STRAIGHT THROUGH THAT SHIT! If you want to live a life where you feel FULFILLED in every cell of your being (not just appear successful on the surface) I am here for you!”
I am now available to take on VIF-ing P clients who I will assist and support and guide to the NEXT LEVEL of AWESOME.
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& I’ll see you on the other side 😉
xo Sara Devine